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yes but are you clear on those?

That's what everyone calls me, so yeah?

[It's his preference by a wide and large margin to just ditch formality altogether in regard to his name.

Besides, 'Chuuya' was the only name that really felt right.]

It was only once, wasn't it?

Dazai told me the terms, so yeah pretty sure I am. Stop dancing around what you wanna say already, it's annoying.

Edited 2023-03-19 20:27 (UTC)

seems rather rude to refer to you so casually

[ god forbid he's rude while he's stabbing someone or something of the sort ]

and you trust that there are not loopholes in those?

i'm not dancing around anything, we are merely having a conversation

Let me be clear then: My preference is Chuuya, and almost no one calls me Nakahara. With all your digging, I'm sure you understand why.

[There wasn't any 'Nakahara' family he felt like being connected to, after all. That madman could stay dead and buried, the surname was his now because fuck him.]

And I'm sure there are. Dazai is Dazai, after all.

And yes, you are.

i do not, please elaborate.

unlike dazai, i do not pretend to know everything.

[ ...he absolutely knows but he wants to hear it from chuuya himself ]

what could i possible want from you here? if we go back to our world i'll have you back under bram's ability. you're aware of this, yes?

I don't have anyone I give a fuck about named 'Nakahara'. It's just convenient since you can't not have a surname.

[Fyodor please.]

[And that was... Galling, certainly. Chuuya valued his identity and freedom, the fact that he wasn't the weapon they tried to make him, with no agency or will.

So of course Fyodor would focus on that.]

Right, of course.

You're fully satisfied with the fact you'll have me back on a leash if we go home. But personally? I still think you're gonna lose. Even if I die because of your schemes, I'm pretty sure I'll have the last laugh.

family is important to you. and you'd do anything for them, for those you trust and who trust you to protect them.

[ how very human for a god ]

godling, the leash is a means to an end.

besides, the one who tried to kill you was not me. your death back home does not actually benefit anyone, who else can host arahabaki if you die? would you let something like that loose in the world?

perhaps you will have the last laugh, perhaps i will fail, but there is nothing duller than a perfect plan perfectly executed.

The port Mafia is my family, so yeah? That's pretty obvious.

[If Fyodor thinks this is some sort of damning observation, Chuuya's not really sure where this is going.]

Yeah, Meursault could get leveled if I die. It could kill you and Dazai and everyone in that place. No one's gonna like the aftermath, but that's how it goes with singularities.

Good thing they don't stick around without a vessel, huh?

[It's not like it isn't something Chuuya has contemplated: What would happen if he died. He'd long reigned himself to the idea of dying young, after all.]

Arahabaki ends with me, one way or another.