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what could i possible want from you here? if we go back to our world i'll have you back under bram's ability. you're aware of this, yes?

I don't have anyone I give a fuck about named 'Nakahara'. It's just convenient since you can't not have a surname.

[Fyodor please.]

[And that was... Galling, certainly. Chuuya valued his identity and freedom, the fact that he wasn't the weapon they tried to make him, with no agency or will.

So of course Fyodor would focus on that.]

Right, of course.

You're fully satisfied with the fact you'll have me back on a leash if we go home. But personally? I still think you're gonna lose. Even if I die because of your schemes, I'm pretty sure I'll have the last laugh.

family is important to you. and you'd do anything for them, for those you trust and who trust you to protect them.

[ how very human for a god ]

godling, the leash is a means to an end.

besides, the one who tried to kill you was not me. your death back home does not actually benefit anyone, who else can host arahabaki if you die? would you let something like that loose in the world?

perhaps you will have the last laugh, perhaps i will fail, but there is nothing duller than a perfect plan perfectly executed.

The port Mafia is my family, so yeah? That's pretty obvious.

[If Fyodor thinks this is some sort of damning observation, Chuuya's not really sure where this is going.]

Yeah, Meursault could get leveled if I die. It could kill you and Dazai and everyone in that place. No one's gonna like the aftermath, but that's how it goes with singularities.

Good thing they don't stick around without a vessel, huh?

[It's not like it isn't something Chuuya has contemplated: What would happen if he died. He'd long reigned himself to the idea of dying young, after all.]

Arahabaki ends with me, one way or another.

do you not think your god is the exception?

[ oh dear, how funny this godling is ]

let's not die when we go back, yes? i do not particularly want to level the entire prison unless dazai leaves me no choice.

Don't see why it would be.

[Exactly how is he funny, Fyodor!!!]

I'd rather not die myself, so sure. Still think you're gonna lose regardless, though.

but why do you wish to live?

it is possible that i will but you'd be underestimating me if you thought there were not contingencies for that event

Who are you, Dazai?

And oh I'm sure you wouldn't hesitate to take us all down with you, you seem like that brand of petty.

is it not a fair question given that you're fighting so hard for it?

i'm only petty about certain things, not the end of the world

[ please stop being so dramatic fyodor ]

It's my life, and no one else's. I've got things I enjoy about it, and things I want to protect. It's no deeper than that.

Oh right, you have to plan out the end of the world in lurid detail like a fucking vampire apocalypse.

logically it makes sense.

[ he just doesn't feel in those sorts of depths so... ]

to erase the sin of the world, yes, of course i must plan it out in lurid, vivid, careful detail.

Are you shitting me?

And people call me dramatic.

[That's. That's literally it. What the fuck Fyodor.]

dramatic would be to say something like this and not go through with it

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