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Chuuya "wine mom" Nakahara ([personal profile] darkdisgrace) wrote2023-03-13 03:11 am
fatalism: (my heart won't start anymore)

[personal profile] fatalism 2023-06-22 04:42 am (UTC)(link)
i am fully aware dazai and i are different people [ though, in a way fyodor doesn't like that separation but that's not the issue here. he blinks, communication pausing for a moment as he parses through chuuya's words. ]

as you were rather inebriated at the time i assumed otherwise.

and why would i lie about any of this? it serves no purpose, and i do not wish to turn you and dazai against each other.


[ he only wants what they have ]
fatalism: (i can't find a pulse)

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[personal profile] fatalism 2023-06-22 04:53 am (UTC)(link)
[ good job chuuya you made the cringe man speechless.

the first instinct is to doubt everything just said now. ]
fatalism: (my heart won't start anymore)

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[personal profile] fatalism 2023-06-22 04:56 am (UTC)(link)
i don't think you were in a state to refuse my company either way.

but it does not surprise me despite never having spent time with dazai while he is well and truly gone under the influence of alcohol


[ it wouldn't be smart to be drunk around fyodor after all ]
fatalism: (my heart won't start anymore)

[personal profile] fatalism 2023-06-22 05:27 am (UTC)(link)
you really don't remember anything from that night. there were a lot of people who wanted your company but you--

well, it's not important i suppose.
fatalism: (love someone you can't tell is dying)

[personal profile] fatalism 2023-06-22 05:34 am (UTC)(link)
turned them all down, all the propositions for an illicit one-night stand. like none of them could fill the loneliness you were suffering.
fatalism: (I know my pain is such an imposition)

[personal profile] fatalism 2023-06-22 05:49 am (UTC)(link)
both, though i can only speak to being certain of one of those statements.

[ spoilers: it's the second one ]
fatalism: (hide blurry eyes like you)

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[personal profile] fatalism 2023-06-22 05:53 am (UTC)(link)
[ sex truly is such a mystery at times ]
fatalism: (my heart won't start anymore)

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[personal profile] fatalism 2023-06-22 05:53 am (UTC)(link)
i'm afraid i do not know what you mean, no.
fatalism: (head high up in the clouds)

[personal profile] fatalism 2023-06-22 05:59 am (UTC)(link)
why an apology? for a sex life to "suck" there would have to be one to begin with.

[ ...this sounds worse. probably. though clearly fyodor doesn't seem to think so. ]
Edited 2023-06-22 06:01 (UTC)
fatalism: (pathological people pleaser)

[personal profile] fatalism 2023-06-22 06:04 am (UTC)(link)
that's a terribly personal question, chuuya-san. it almost implies we are close but yes, that would be correct.
fatalism: (my endless empathy)

[personal profile] fatalism 2023-06-22 06:24 am (UTC)(link)
[ there is another pause, something quiet, and maybe a little brittle had been brushed against ]

thank you but there is no need to apologize, i suppose it was a fair question given our line of conversation. but, in case it needs to be said, i also do not judge someone for whether they have sex or not.