That's sex, it's an entirely different beast. How many people have you dated that didn't want to murder you later?
[Chuuya says this, as if he has had any dating experience to speak of.
Dazai is never allowed to know.] Maybe instead of 'social skills', I should say 'emotional intelligence'? You're a special brand of idiot, that's for sure.
[And yet somehow, it's said with an absolutely sickening amount of wry fondness.]
I don't date. Mostly I fuck for longer periods of time and then fake my death or something. Whatever works.
(because that's SO MUCH better? dazai? please?)
Excuse me. Is it because I did molly so I could get into your pants with no accountability? Thought that was extreme intelligence on my emotional part.
You're pretty crap at it then, because the amount of women who want you dead is still legendary back home. And what do you mean you don't date?! A lot of them seem to think way differently.
[Gosh he's tempted to bite him for that.
...He's too comfortable though. Enough so that Dazai's admission gets a snort out of him instead of a scolding.] You do realize I knew that was on purpose at the time, right? Plausible deniability is close enough, I guess.
(it certainly does. probably all this honesty and openess won't ever make things easier. right now, they can find some solace in it, but in a month? two? perhaps they're digging their own grave.
dazai's cowardness, chuuya's inability to let go. dazai's machinations, chuuya's forgiveness.)
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[Talking has been the bane of their existence since day one. The problem with knowing each other so innately, maybe.
But they're trying, which is huge for the both of them.]
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(actual question. please provide answer.)
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[Chuuya says this, as if he has had any dating experience to speak of.
Dazai is never allowed to know.] Maybe instead of 'social skills', I should say 'emotional intelligence'? You're a special brand of idiot, that's for sure.
[And yet somehow, it's said with an absolutely sickening amount of wry fondness.]
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(because that's SO MUCH better? dazai? please?)
Excuse me. Is it because I did molly so I could get into your pants with no accountability? Thought that was extreme intelligence on my emotional part.
(LIKE CHUUYA DIDN'T KNOW HE DID IT ON PURPOSE.)
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[Gosh he's tempted to bite him for that.
...He's too comfortable though. Enough so that Dazai's admission gets a snort out of him instead of a scolding.] You do realize I knew that was on purpose at the time, right? Plausible deniability is close enough, I guess.
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(what a piece of shit. and for his next attempt to talk--)
Well, works both ways! You can totally also say-- he was willing, and I was horny, and since he was like that, it totally didn't mean a thing!
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[And yet, he loves this man.
That probably says a lot of unfortunate things about Chuuya himself.] Yeah yeah, pretty sure that was the point at the time.
['at the time'. They certainly didn't need the excuses now, though.] But look at us now.
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dazai's cowardness, chuuya's inability to let go. dazai's machinations, chuuya's forgiveness.)
Well, we had been... You know.
(... ugh. making disgusting love.)
Affectionate. We have been here for a while.