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Chuuya "wine mom" Nakahara ([personal profile] darkdisgrace) wrote2023-03-13 03:11 am
fatalism: (unless you're choosing me)

[personal profile] fatalism 2023-06-24 11:09 am (UTC)(link)
as long as you don't expect me to make you a white russian i am not offended.

[ he lies, he wouldn't even be offended if a joke about that cocktail was made

there is a long pause. then:]


how good is your sense of direction?
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[personal profile] fatalism 2023-06-24 11:16 am (UTC)(link)
cream is acceptable with vodka and tea, however.

[ hesitation again, fyodor is clearly thinking over something. or plotting but when is he not? ]

you know the set of small houses near that atrocious statue place, yes? third door with the scuffed handle. beneath the stairs is a door, easy to miss.
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[personal profile] fatalism 2023-06-24 11:27 am (UTC)(link)
inside. do please knock twice

[ when chuuya arrives he'll find said door halfopen, and fyodor waiting inside. it isn't much of a space really-there is only a circular window high up which provides a clear escape route. the stairs over the room creak whenever someone uses them, alerting fyodor to any movements in the house. there is a bed, neatly made and mostly unused, then a desk, two chairs and stacks of books and notes. nothing here is too important, the notes are clearly a sort of guidelines of this place fyodor has been working on in his spare time.

his ushanka is folded on top of a stack of books, and there is the bow of a musical instrument on the floor by the bed. the only thing that looks recent is how the chairs have been arranged and the two chipped teacups that will serve as glasses. the bottle is unopened and clearly expensive despite the rest of the room's things which probably are closer to garbage than anything.

yes bitch he does live like this.

you're welcome chuuya ]
fatalism: (I know my pain is such an imposition)

[personal profile] fatalism 2023-06-24 11:43 am (UTC)(link)
[ he lives like this willingly and it's more presentable than his second hiding place. you got the tour of the luxury accommodations. the second place doesn't even have a bed. the second place is not even a room intended to be a bedroom but...no one is ever seeing that location.

fyodor looks up, gesture towards the chair as chuuya takes a seat and plays the part of perfectly polite host as if he's not in ...well, here. ]
It would be rude to offer you anything else. [ he would offer it to anyone who he trusted enough to invite here, which honestly? not even a list of names. ]

The inn is also loud, out in the open, and thus an easy place to kill someone. [ he pours out a generous cup of vodka for both of them and then sits. ]
fatalism: (love someone you can't tell is dying)

[personal profile] fatalism 2023-06-24 12:15 pm (UTC)(link)
[ which, if he does, might cause fyodor a minor crisis or two because he expects nothing of the sort. he inclines his head. ] I am certain there are ways to do that but the risk is still high, especially given that we have no control as to who comes and what they remember when arriving.

[ fyodor raises his own, a small but genuine at the phrase. ] Close, it's vashe zdorov'ye, to your health, Chuuya-san.

[ because toasting to his own is simply a terribly ironic toast. down the vodka goes and he feels the warmth spread instantly. ]
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[personal profile] fatalism 2023-06-24 12:32 pm (UTC)(link)
My own comfort? [ he looks momentarily perplexed about the notion of it before catching onto the joke, and fyodor offers: ] I suppose I could hide something under a rug with which to kill someone.

[ a half-questioning eye is kept on chuuya to see how he enjoys the vodka. as far as he knows the other drinks often, and prefers expensive drinks despite his seeming status as a lightweight. fyodor only notes to get water at some point from the sink upstairs. ] You have rather good pronunciation for not being fluent, picking it up wouldn't be difficult.

Japanese, French, English, what else do you speak?
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[personal profile] fatalism 2023-06-25 03:48 am (UTC)(link)
[ fyodor brings the cup to his lips, an amused smile hidden as he takes another long sip. he will wait until chuuya finishes his drink before refilling their glasses. ] I think it would be dishonest to pretend I don't have information on you that would technically count as a boundary violation.

[ a tilt of his head, because he's not even sorry for it. ] You have done pretty well for yourself, Chuuya-san. There is no need to be modest about your achievements.

Nikolai would accuse the school system of being an instrument against finding true will. [ fondness. ] I do not put much stock in it. Nor the way most institutions in the world work.
fatalism: (I'm the best thing at this party)

tw; suicide mention

[personal profile] fatalism 2023-06-25 01:02 pm (UTC)(link)
You are welcome, it was rather amusing watching him do the deed himself. [ he looks entirely too pleased with having caused a man an unwilling suicide. ] But if you must know, the more sensitive parts of your story did not come from his files. Even the military only has bits and pieces though far more extensive.

[ truly, chuuya's past had been a hunting down of information across two continents but it had been required. still. he leans across and refills both of their cups, making sure to keep his hands clearly in view. there are no tricks here, no attempt to slip anything into his drink and such.

fyodor shakes his head. ]
I could not picture you at a traditional school, you would have been a delinquent either way. [ teasing. ] My own schooling was religious in nature, so I do not find it entirely a waste.

[ religion is important to fyodor after all, no matter how twisted it is inside. did he go to school though? who knows. at least it seems like he's willing to pretend he has. ]
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[personal profile] fatalism 2023-06-27 11:31 pm (UTC)(link)
It does not bother you that I might already know? [ fyodor refills their cups, feels the warmth of the alcohol already setting into his body. oh, he is going to be well and truly drunk soon enough. good vodka will do that quickly, even if he is used to drinking this particular drink in moderate quantities. cheap vodka burns but it does not hit as hard as this.

a pause at the observation, he swirls his cup. what fyodor's past is has been burnt away from record, if there ever was anything to begin with.

dazai has already poked gently into his past, fyodor refused to give answers. but here he offers something:]
I had the highest grades, and I was always in perfect trouble.
fatalism: (love someone you can't tell is dying)

[personal profile] fatalism 2023-06-28 03:35 am (UTC)(link)
I have never had an interest in selling the truth of your existence to others. I asked because I thought...perhaps you'd prefer if I pretended not to know. [ that it would make chuuya comfortable. fyodor knows he's not exactly...personable but he can try to be an effort to be polite, especially if it means chuuya might be more inclined to listen later down the line.

fyodor slumps back a little on the chair, the smile appearing with a hint of pride. ]


I enjoy doing things properly. If I was going to cause trouble, of course it had to be well executed and while there was never any proof of my involvement, I would be punished regardless.

[ a pause ]

They weren't wrong, of course, but it always seemed arbitrary to punish a crime with no evidence.
fatalism: (I know my pain is such an imposition)

[personal profile] fatalism 2023-06-28 11:30 pm (UTC)(link)
[ fyodor places a hand over his heart. ] I swear not to speak of your origins to random strangers, cross my heart and hope to die. But I do not know if your accident with Corruption will cause questions in future. [ not that fyodor saw that but ] It shouldn't be too hard to misdirect anyone who gets curious and has more brain cells functioning than the average person.

[ leaning across, his ankle nudges chuuya's with ease. the advantage of looking like a pool noodle. ]

Who is to say if they did or did not? [ fyodor replies with a smile, sipping again. ] Maybe if you had been my classmate I would have been less inclined to mischief, it would have been too distracting to have had you in the same room.
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[personal profile] fatalism 2023-07-04 02:51 am (UTC)(link)
Oh yes, I would've used you as a scapegoat time and time again. You would have wanted to punch me any time we crossed paths in the school halls. It would have been the bane of all teachers and students like, they would have avoided us like the plague. [ and honestly fyodor why are you getting so carried away with a hypothetical like this???

admittedly, fyodor will never stop being surprised when people are nice to him like this: easy touches, easy words. he nudges back, then shifts so chuuya's ankle is trapped between both of his feet. ]


Ah, have we drunk too much now?
fatalism: (just doing what we're told)

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[personal profile] fatalism 2023-07-04 03:29 am (UTC)(link)
[ he refills both of their teacups to the brim and almost, almost spills over because they are now playing footsie.

fyodor's laugh is quiet, barely a breath lost under the sounds of their feet doing something as if they were teenagers in detention instead of two grown-ass men who regularly engage in crime for different reasons. ]

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