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Chuuya "wine mom" Nakahara ([personal profile] darkdisgrace) wrote2023-03-13 03:11 am
fatalism: (too far gone to bring back to life)

[personal profile] fatalism 2023-06-25 03:48 am (UTC)(link)
[ fyodor brings the cup to his lips, an amused smile hidden as he takes another long sip. he will wait until chuuya finishes his drink before refilling their glasses. ] I think it would be dishonest to pretend I don't have information on you that would technically count as a boundary violation.

[ a tilt of his head, because he's not even sorry for it. ] You have done pretty well for yourself, Chuuya-san. There is no need to be modest about your achievements.

Nikolai would accuse the school system of being an instrument against finding true will. [ fondness. ] I do not put much stock in it. Nor the way most institutions in the world work.
fatalism: (I'm the best thing at this party)

tw; suicide mention

[personal profile] fatalism 2023-06-25 01:02 pm (UTC)(link)
You are welcome, it was rather amusing watching him do the deed himself. [ he looks entirely too pleased with having caused a man an unwilling suicide. ] But if you must know, the more sensitive parts of your story did not come from his files. Even the military only has bits and pieces though far more extensive.

[ truly, chuuya's past had been a hunting down of information across two continents but it had been required. still. he leans across and refills both of their cups, making sure to keep his hands clearly in view. there are no tricks here, no attempt to slip anything into his drink and such.

fyodor shakes his head. ]
I could not picture you at a traditional school, you would have been a delinquent either way. [ teasing. ] My own schooling was religious in nature, so I do not find it entirely a waste.

[ religion is important to fyodor after all, no matter how twisted it is inside. did he go to school though? who knows. at least it seems like he's willing to pretend he has. ]
fatalism: (my heart won't start anymore)

[personal profile] fatalism 2023-06-27 11:31 pm (UTC)(link)
It does not bother you that I might already know? [ fyodor refills their cups, feels the warmth of the alcohol already setting into his body. oh, he is going to be well and truly drunk soon enough. good vodka will do that quickly, even if he is used to drinking this particular drink in moderate quantities. cheap vodka burns but it does not hit as hard as this.

a pause at the observation, he swirls his cup. what fyodor's past is has been burnt away from record, if there ever was anything to begin with.

dazai has already poked gently into his past, fyodor refused to give answers. but here he offers something:]
I had the highest grades, and I was always in perfect trouble.
fatalism: (love someone you can't tell is dying)

[personal profile] fatalism 2023-06-28 03:35 am (UTC)(link)
I have never had an interest in selling the truth of your existence to others. I asked because I thought...perhaps you'd prefer if I pretended not to know. [ that it would make chuuya comfortable. fyodor knows he's not exactly...personable but he can try to be an effort to be polite, especially if it means chuuya might be more inclined to listen later down the line.

fyodor slumps back a little on the chair, the smile appearing with a hint of pride. ]


I enjoy doing things properly. If I was going to cause trouble, of course it had to be well executed and while there was never any proof of my involvement, I would be punished regardless.

[ a pause ]

They weren't wrong, of course, but it always seemed arbitrary to punish a crime with no evidence.
fatalism: (I know my pain is such an imposition)

[personal profile] fatalism 2023-06-28 11:30 pm (UTC)(link)
[ fyodor places a hand over his heart. ] I swear not to speak of your origins to random strangers, cross my heart and hope to die. But I do not know if your accident with Corruption will cause questions in future. [ not that fyodor saw that but ] It shouldn't be too hard to misdirect anyone who gets curious and has more brain cells functioning than the average person.

[ leaning across, his ankle nudges chuuya's with ease. the advantage of looking like a pool noodle. ]

Who is to say if they did or did not? [ fyodor replies with a smile, sipping again. ] Maybe if you had been my classmate I would have been less inclined to mischief, it would have been too distracting to have had you in the same room.
fatalism: (no such thing as subtle cruelty)

[personal profile] fatalism 2023-07-04 02:51 am (UTC)(link)
Oh yes, I would've used you as a scapegoat time and time again. You would have wanted to punch me any time we crossed paths in the school halls. It would have been the bane of all teachers and students like, they would have avoided us like the plague. [ and honestly fyodor why are you getting so carried away with a hypothetical like this???

admittedly, fyodor will never stop being surprised when people are nice to him like this: easy touches, easy words. he nudges back, then shifts so chuuya's ankle is trapped between both of his feet. ]


Ah, have we drunk too much now?
fatalism: (just doing what we're told)

1/??

[personal profile] fatalism 2023-07-04 03:29 am (UTC)(link)
[ he refills both of their teacups to the brim and almost, almost spills over because they are now playing footsie.

fyodor's laugh is quiet, barely a breath lost under the sounds of their feet doing something as if they were teenagers in detention instead of two grown-ass men who regularly engage in crime for different reasons. ]
fatalism: (how am I gonna be an optimist about this)

2/??

[personal profile] fatalism 2023-07-04 03:31 am (UTC)(link)
[ retaliation is about to come in the shape of fyodor using his longer legs to pull chuuya down his seat but then the other has to go and say that.

that is

well. what. ]
fatalism: (sing in the river)

3/4

[personal profile] fatalism 2023-07-04 03:33 am (UTC)(link)
[ the struggle is left hanging in the air out of sheer surprise. ]
fatalism: (seek it out and ye shall find)

4/4

[personal profile] fatalism 2023-07-04 03:35 am (UTC)(link)
[ and instead of answering those words because fyodor has no idea what to do with that, he pulls on too hard and miscalculates because chuuya is built well and all fyodor does is ends up being the one toppling off his chair --

the vodka teacup is fine, he only spilt a little on himself. ]
fatalism: (live for you)

1/2

[personal profile] fatalism 2023-07-04 03:57 am (UTC)(link)
[ fyodor's dignity (assuming he ever had one to begin with) would be bruised and reeling, but there is a certain sense of pride in making chuuya laugh. and isn't that weird? ]

It may be the case that I am inebriated but--[ and he hesitates in taking chuuya's offered hand out of habit. ] I think you are severely drunk if you call me cute, have you not seen yourself in the mirror? You--
fatalism: (seek it out and ye shall find)

2/2

[personal profile] fatalism 2023-07-04 03:59 am (UTC)(link)
[ except he does not finish his cringe compliment because then chuuya has landed on him and fyodor gives out an 'oof' because the wooden floor is not comfortable.

a hand sets on chuuya's arm trying to balance and now his vodka does end up spilled between them. they're going to smell with vodka through and through. ]
fatalism: (and I have missed you all day)

[personal profile] fatalism 2023-07-04 08:13 am (UTC)(link)
[ the thing is, drunk laughter is such a contagious thing— fyodor is about to move but the proximity, drink and company are a disarmingly lethal combination. he's not entirely sure chuuya is correct in his assessment but his drunken tongue won't let him argue, it merely sits in place. ]

Oh is that what it's called? Footsie. [ this is all entirely too normal and too endearing and--were he able to regret things, he would maybe feel a little bad for having enslaved chuuya to do his bidding but. he isn't that good of a person really. ]

Good thing we have more vodka to help us along the way, [ he shifts his eyes, fixed on chuuya: the way his mouth curves, the crinkles along the corner of his eyes, the way the red hair falls--it's all terribly--] Attractive.
fatalism: (i need you like a heart needs a beat)

[personal profile] fatalism 2023-07-11 04:08 am (UTC)(link)
Right now? [ fyodor thinks over his answer, giving it visible consideration as if he were delivering the answer to an important plan. ] I would not think of it as flirting so much as enjoying the fact you are allowing me to touch you.

[ and being touched back, fyodor does grow a little preternaturally still at the touch against his hair. chuuya is not immune to crime and punishment even when fyodor is not actively intending to use it. ]

I do not often admit to being deficient in things but this...this is something I am not skilled in. But you are attractive, and so very human and yet so very dangerous.

[ oh yeah, he's getting close to white girl drunk levels soon. ]

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