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Chuuya "wine mom" Nakahara ([personal profile] darkdisgrace) wrote2023-03-13 03:11 am
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[personal profile] nullificates 2023-03-19 03:55 am (UTC)(link)
(there goes any possibility of dazai calling it a day and sneaking into his bed, not with how chuuya's strength surpasses his own even in his sleep. he guesses he'll just die, then, in this bed.

fine, fine, he'll gaslight the living shit out of chuuya in the morning, this is fine, he does it every time, anyway. the narrative is already so laid out in his brain that it grants a shrug, a kiss to chuuya's forehead, and he gives up completely.

his limbs are long, and to be comfortable with chuuya just holding him like this, he'll bring him closer, wrapping legs and arms around the smaller figure.)
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[personal profile] nullificates 2023-03-19 04:18 am (UTC)(link)
(there's going to be ghostly fingers against chuuya's back, gently caresses, there's still some light in the room, and dazai's thrown off. he's not going to sleep, most likely, but that's nothing new. dazai never sleeps, in irregular, uncertain, awfully specific conditions, but he doesn't mind it. he can rest with his eyes closed, enjoying the proximity, the touch.

dear lord, he missed touch. it's going to be a good trade-off. the next morning, at least, he'll pretend to have been asleep once chuuya wakes up.)
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[personal profile] nullificates 2023-03-19 04:58 am (UTC)(link)
(dazai's a light sleeper. the causes of his insomnia are such a long list, but this has always been a reason why he just can't enjoy his slumber for too long. the slightest noise and he's wide awake, a light snaps him out of his dreams as fast as a blink, and well.

he's not slept a wink, but at least he's calmed down some. something he's always known is how to fake, how to pretend, so a yawn announces his awakening, phony but real in acting.)


Go back to sleep.
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[personal profile] nullificates 2023-03-19 05:15 am (UTC)(link)
(HEY. he was so peaceful, so happy, and now there are hands!! and he wasn't even wined and dined, chuuya cut that short!!

... ok, fine. it's tickling, with how the bandages make a barrier. he's bringing chuuya's hand into his so he will stop.)


No, a hallucination, go to sleep, or I'm smothering you.
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[personal profile] nullificates 2023-03-19 05:54 am (UTC)(link)
Ah,, nevermind, I'm not going to fall asleep again. Come on. Wake up.

(perhaps having a snail drawn on his forehead would be preferrable to what comes next.

dazai rolls, his weight, albeit little, on top of chuuya as a very bad smothering attempt.

it's actually quite comfortable - calculated to be just for show.)


Die. Are you dead yet? A little bit?
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[personal profile] nullificates 2023-03-19 06:10 am (UTC)(link)
Someone locked me in here agaisnt my will, with lion-killing legs and relentless grip.

(agaisnt his will his ass. not when he is now on top of the other like this, willing, comfy, and oh, he's waking up chuuya quick.

with a feathery touch to the palm of his hand.)


Mhm. You're not helping at all. Almost like you don't want to be smothered!
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[personal profile] nullificates 2023-03-19 04:01 pm (UTC)(link)
Not when the grip is a sleeping, drunk God-Human angry tiny thing.

(excuses, excuses.

it's interesting, though, how his breath hitches in his throat, the shiver. ah, well. he's going to make a circle with his nail, no actual damage before it retreats.)


No, this is a very lazy murder attempt. Just die already.
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[personal profile] nullificates 2023-03-19 11:19 pm (UTC)(link)
Kill me then.

(isn't that a very good solution? chuuya is not going to do it, and now that dazai managed to establish the lie he's just doing this to be a dick, he rests on chuuya's chest, gripping on him much like chuuya did as he fell asleep.)
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[personal profile] nullificates 2023-03-19 11:28 pm (UTC)(link)
(they can keep lying to each other, to themselves, but this is awfully nice. his head lifts, a hand supporting it, elbow sinking on the mattress as he looks, just looks. chuuya looks pretty in the morning, his head tilts a little just as if he's seeing a hallucination, knowing fairly well that he isn't.)

You looked very peaceful, so I guess the half-decent thing is bullshit.
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[personal profile] nullificates 2023-03-20 11:32 am (UTC)(link)
Sure, sure. Sure!

(it's almost like he's testing limits, with how his hand comes up to tuck some of the hair on chuuya's face behind his ear, even as he further burrows into the sheets. it even makes dazai move a little, just to find more comfort on top of the other.)
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[personal profile] nullificates 2023-03-20 11:50 am (UTC)(link)
I fell asleep, you can't hold that against me, like you held me.

(ah, the level of bullshit, never less, never slightly better. chuuya would probably know how many times dazai wakes up at night to make this such a bad excuse.

besides, he's being so nicely held. his face hides against the other's neck, considering it a blessing the choker is now somewhere on the floor, arms coming under chuuya for maximum comfort.

and a sigh. it's better if he doesn't look at chuuya's face, anyway. he hates it that he doesn't hate it.)
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[personal profile] nullificates 2023-03-20 12:10 pm (UTC)(link)
Says the cowardly man who just wanted his hat!

(he deserves to be pushed, but if chuuya ever tried, it won't do much, with how strongly he's being held. it's the first time, isn't it? it's usually carrying, allowing chuuya to rest against his legs when corruption drains him completely.

his lips are brushing against skin, but not purposefully. it's just how close he is.)


I called you, you know.

(that's all he's going to say on that.)

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