darkdisgrace | IC inbox @ Jikan

That would require Dazai being anywhere near me, so of course I won't be using it.

[He makes a grumpy face at the thought. Ugh. He settles the annoyance by letting that grip on his collar guide him forward, pressing a kiss to her forehead before resting his head on her shoulder and letting out a sigh.]

It's not that big a deal, y'know. I'm still me and I'm still here. Nothing has changed. I didn't know you could even sense anything about me that was unusual, or I'd have told you before. [He grimaces slightly.] ...Sorry about that. Hope it hasn't been worrying you or anything. Most people can't tell there's anything unusual, since I'm pretty normal for an ability user... maybe a bit sturdier than most people, but still. [He was powerful, but most people just put that down to Chuuya being Chuuya. And it was... mostly.]

Only a handful of people I know are even aware of this stuff, and they were there when I found out.

Only a handful of people, hm?

[ And they were there when he found out...?

She turns her head into his. Tilts her nose, her cheek against his hair, skin in a warm nuzzle as she considers his words, that grimace. Her grip on his collar finally relaxes, but it lingers, her fingers tracing the edge, teasing skin. ]

You have nothing to apologize for. You've never given me a reason to worry... about that, anyway, and not until a moment ago. [ That's something of a questionably playful jab, but there's something else woven in there, a quiet statement.

She doesn't want to lose him. ]

Of course Chuuya is Chuuya and [ she kisses his cheek ] I'm happy you told me.

As far as I know, anyway. Probably some government assholes out there who know the details, but they don't count as far as I'm concerned.

[He was a case file to them, probably-- a thing, a former government project gone rogue. They didn't count among people that mattered.] Not that it's a particular elite club when it includes that shut-in Verlaine and the Dazai from my world, but hey.

[He rolls his eyes a little at that last bit, instead choosing to focus on the feel of her nuzzling into him, arms tightening just slightly around her. He lets out a sigh, relaxing against her.]

...Thank you.

[ She blinks at that, canting her head just so. ]

For what?

For asking. For not freaking out. For seeing me as me.

[he shrugs, smiling wryly.]

Not that I'd know, but I can't imagine it's a fun thing to sense coming from a guy, right? [Honestly, he isn't sure how that would feel except 'scary'.] And for the longest time as a kid, I wondered about my humanity, if the 'me' that existed was only a shell, a safety device. I've long realized otherwise, but it's still nice to be acknowledged.

It is, isn't it?

[ She knows. ]

Was there anything you wanted to ask me?

[ There's another question sitting on the tip of her tongue, but she holds it or the moment. ]

It is.

[He reaches up to fiddle with one of the feathers in her hair, smoothing his thumb over the edge of it gently. It's become something of a habit recently, and with her in his arms it's easy enough to fall into it once again.]

...Honestly, I was going to ask you the same thing. You've got to have some other questions, right?

[ Her breath hitches with that contact, her pupils dilating just so. She has other questions, she does, but the one that jumps to the forefront of her mind with his thumb smoothing the edge of that feather is -- ]

You said you're sturdier... than a regular human?

Hm...? Yeah, at least I figure I am. Part of that might be that my ability to manipulate gravity requires it, the rest is how they made the whole Arahabaki thing work. I've always been a bit stronger and sturdier than the average guy.

[He notes the way her breath hitches, but he hasn't quite connected the dots as to why she's asking.]

Using corruption puts a strain on the body. Literally rips it apart, really. From what I know, they had to 'tailor' my system so I could survive even using the power without turning myself into goo. [What a pleasant mental image.] Still pretty much half kills me, but I'm built for my abilities and can handle more than most.

[Ability users tended to be built to suit their abilities in one way or another.]

[ She shifts in his lap just enough to put her glass of wine down beside the bed. Just enough and quickly because he's warm and she's comfortable; though, she does pause, think better of it, and take a brief moment to drain her glass in its entirety before she puts it down and returns to her place.

And if she shifts a bit more once she's in his lap, well, that is intentional. Surely he won't have any trouble keeping his glass from spilling? ]

I'm pretty sure I've never fucked anyone hard enough to turn them into goo. Broken some bones, though. [ Among other things. ]

They always say they can handle it.

[He lets out a bark of laugh at that, amused.]

Are you telling me you've been holding back, pretty bird?

[He won't have any trouble keeping his glass from spilling because he's setting it down, his focus more on that admission from the lovely woman in his lap.]

Can't believe you've been holding out on me all this time.

[His hand comes up instead to brush against her cheek, her chin-- tilting her head towards him so she can see the heated smile curling on his lips.]

We'll have to fix that, won't we? Because now I've got to see you let loose.

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